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This will just be a blog about me. About my life, my issues, as much as I feel like telling. I'm going to try to be honest with this blog, and not hold anything back. If you don't like what you hear, you don't have to stay, I don't want to offend anyone. This isn't going to be a depressing blog most of the time, but there will be times I'll have to vent. I hope you can enjoy this insight into me and my life.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Park

Content. (my friend told me to put down my mood at the start and end of the blogs)

Greetings. We go to a park on most Wednesdays, to hang out with our friends. Today I talked with a friend of mine about ghost stuff, and reaching a more psychic state of mind. I really don't believe in that kind of stuff, but I tried it anyway. Nothing really supernatural happened, but since she said to try to use a memory that would make me feel emotional...I did.

I pictured myself in a black expanse, my mind. There were two paths to either side of me, the left one to a cross, the right to a computer. I started walking toward toward the computer path, but someone was screaming from the other path...it was my imaginary character Neb, the one that personifies the light in me. He was hanging on to the ledge of a pit, yelling for me to help him. I went to the edge of the pit and just stared down at him, my eyes glinting red...until he fell. Then I lifted my head and roared, my head turning more reptilian...

It scared me frankly, because I'm always afraid that's how my life will turn out...I'll be a monster...

Andrew

Depressed...

1 comment:

Pearl said...

When you begin a blog 'content', and end it 'depressed' then you may want to rethink your writing style. Perhaps find something hopeful, like a silver lining, in what you wrote. Heaven knows that being depressed is...fun...while it lasts, but I think most people recognize, after they come out of it, that depression can be self-harming, although the occasional emotional binging is alright.
You may understand why I'm against you, or anyone, getting 'into' self-harm.
I started a blog btw...http://making-small-talk.blogspot.com/
I'll update weekly.