Hello readers...is it odd to feel so normal after a twisted year? Or how about, a twisted day?
Earlier today, June 30th, 2011, we put our wonderful, 3 year old German Shepherd down...her name was Kairi, and she was the most epic dog on the planet. She was so sweet...so adorable...hilarious... *sigh* I'm going to miss her. We were not expecting to put her down today, or at all, but the vet told us she had bone cancer, when we thought it was something much less deadly...she was so young. Mom was going absolutely nuts with crying...even David needed a tissue. I stayed with mom when they gave her the shot and the vet told us "she's gone". Should I have a problem with the fact I didn't cry? That I feel more grateful that we had her at all, instead of sad that she's gone? I don't feel sad, I'm not questioning or yelling at God, I feel...fine. Why is that, readers?
On a happier note, I got my driver's license. I can now drive by myself...so if you see my car, run. I might be driving somewhere later today. It's a bit scary, having that responsibility, but also kind of nice. The test was...well, it was a snap. Besides the parking bit, which wasn't so much difficult as it was tricky. NOTE TO FUTURE DRIVERS: You need to learn a 3 point turn for the test, at least where I went.
I wrote a song, while in the shower a few nights ago. Yeah, I'm so amazing. >.> I've only had to make a few changes to the lyrics, and thus far I really like it. It's about making my own choices, even if people don't approve. Applicable to moi, no?
My Damon/Alaric fanfiction is coming along nicely. I have yet to get to any actual shmexy parts yet, but I'll get there. I'm trying to make Damon rather confused, which I think he would be in that situation, and probably going to make him a bit sappy later. For now though, he's trying to keep his cool.
Yesterday I had awesome Skype chats with Kathlene (one of the sweetest, most understanding friends ever), and Alex (who loves manga and anime, and plays Magic: the Gathering). They were simply fun to talk to, I had forgotten what it was like to have fun skyping without actually role-playing, it was refreshing.
Anyway, I feel...not normal, because I feel normal. My parents got divorced, we now live in two places, my mom has a new, nice but somewhat know-it-all boyfriend, my dad is still rather distant despite being OK with me being gay, our dog just died...and I feel fine...
Because I have amazing friends, I got my license, I wrote a good song, I have hot guys to watch on TV, I know that I can write even if I don't make a career out of it, I can be strong and confident for my family, and I have a God who loves me. And that sounded...inspirational, if I do say so myself.
Thank you readers, love you!
Inner Dragon...or maybe, just Andrew is good enough. : )
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Happy mood!
Greetings reader people!
Cool weather...I adore thee! I spent a while lying outside earlier listening to music (all from Glee...I'm a Gleek!) and enjoying the overcast, cool weather. We're two hours north of Phoenix, so we're more like 80 degrees than 90-95. ^.^
Glee...Vampire Diaries...even though I'm not even WATCHING them right now, (their seasons both ended) I still want to talk about how awesome they are!! I've been reading (and writing, I'm neglecting my poor book v.v) Vampire Diaries fanfiction. Damon/Alaric...I will make this a reality, even if it's only in my mind. Pretending powers, activate!
Sooo, my mom has a boyfriend. <.< Has for a while. >.> Shhhh, don't tell anyone...but seriously, any of my friends who read this, don't tell anyone. Anyway, the three of us (mom, me, and my brother David) were having a debate with him this evening (about evolution vs. creation)...and he's smart. Like really, really smart. But, in my honest opinion...we rather creamed him. <_< Is it wrong to feel so satisfied? I could say it was glorifying God, but it was more for my own pride, (speaking of which, "thank you prayer" pause) so I shouldn't gloat. I will admit, while I do have my problems with him, he's a good guy, and he loves my mom very much.
Niel Patrick Harris...if he didn't already have them, I would want to have his adopted babies! But he has a long term partner, and they have twin adopted babies, which is awesome. If anyone hasn't see Dr. Horrible, you must type it into Youtube and watch it!! He isn't horrible, he's adorable! (see the rhyme? Huh? Huuuh?) He's the type of villain you want to give a hug to and say "don't worry, you'll rule the world someday!". Plus Nathan Fillian (idk the spelling, he's from Firefly) is in it too, and is a sexy jerk. Darn his muscles, otherwise I'd have a real problem with him...
I should give more people my blog. Or try to advertise it more. I'm just afraid some parents of my friends would find about it (and moi and moi's...specialness) and get upset. Though there's really nothing inappropriate in my blog...I don't even swear. >.> If you can, readers, perhaps pass along my blog if you can. I would blog more often if I thought more people read it, I think. I hope. If not, I'm sure my friends would make me. <.<
Is it weird that I'm 19 and earlier was pretending to beat up a fictional jerk (Captain Hammer, watch Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog to find out) with earthbending outside in the dark of night earlier? Don't answer that. I need to get more out there in the world, which means getting my license and moving my lazy butt to try and do more. Any advice my readers can give would be helpful...unless it's really bad advice, in which case I will most likely not listen to it.
Hmm. Long blog. By the way, I made a comment on Youtube (on Lady Gaga's "Judas" video) that got 103 thumbs up! It's by "lordmonday" or "lordmonday1" if you want to look for it. >_> And, since I think he deserves mention, you should read the blog of one of the guys I'm following. Mr. Happy. He's another gay Christian, and he's AWESOME!!! Seriously, a huge inspiration to me, he's fantastic.
Love ya guys! ^.^...whoever you are! ^.^
Andrew
Cool weather...I adore thee! I spent a while lying outside earlier listening to music (all from Glee...I'm a Gleek!) and enjoying the overcast, cool weather. We're two hours north of Phoenix, so we're more like 80 degrees than 90-95. ^.^
Glee...Vampire Diaries...even though I'm not even WATCHING them right now, (their seasons both ended) I still want to talk about how awesome they are!! I've been reading (and writing, I'm neglecting my poor book v.v) Vampire Diaries fanfiction. Damon/Alaric...I will make this a reality, even if it's only in my mind. Pretending powers, activate!
Sooo, my mom has a boyfriend. <.< Has for a while. >.> Shhhh, don't tell anyone...but seriously, any of my friends who read this, don't tell anyone. Anyway, the three of us (mom, me, and my brother David) were having a debate with him this evening (about evolution vs. creation)...and he's smart. Like really, really smart. But, in my honest opinion...we rather creamed him. <_< Is it wrong to feel so satisfied? I could say it was glorifying God, but it was more for my own pride, (speaking of which, "thank you prayer" pause) so I shouldn't gloat. I will admit, while I do have my problems with him, he's a good guy, and he loves my mom very much.
Niel Patrick Harris...if he didn't already have them, I would want to have his adopted babies! But he has a long term partner, and they have twin adopted babies, which is awesome. If anyone hasn't see Dr. Horrible, you must type it into Youtube and watch it!! He isn't horrible, he's adorable! (see the rhyme? Huh? Huuuh?) He's the type of villain you want to give a hug to and say "don't worry, you'll rule the world someday!". Plus Nathan Fillian (idk the spelling, he's from Firefly) is in it too, and is a sexy jerk. Darn his muscles, otherwise I'd have a real problem with him...
I should give more people my blog. Or try to advertise it more. I'm just afraid some parents of my friends would find about it (and moi and moi's...specialness) and get upset. Though there's really nothing inappropriate in my blog...I don't even swear. >.> If you can, readers, perhaps pass along my blog if you can. I would blog more often if I thought more people read it, I think. I hope. If not, I'm sure my friends would make me. <.<
Is it weird that I'm 19 and earlier was pretending to beat up a fictional jerk (Captain Hammer, watch Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog to find out) with earthbending outside in the dark of night earlier? Don't answer that. I need to get more out there in the world, which means getting my license and moving my lazy butt to try and do more. Any advice my readers can give would be helpful...unless it's really bad advice, in which case I will most likely not listen to it.
Hmm. Long blog. By the way, I made a comment on Youtube (on Lady Gaga's "Judas" video) that got 103 thumbs up! It's by "lordmonday" or "lordmonday1" if you want to look for it. >_> And, since I think he deserves mention, you should read the blog of one of the guys I'm following. Mr. Happy. He's another gay Christian, and he's AWESOME!!! Seriously, a huge inspiration to me, he's fantastic.
Love ya guys! ^.^...whoever you are! ^.^
Andrew
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
The non-apologetic blog title.
I've decided to not apologize for not blogging. I will blog when I want to, not when my readers demand. It's my life after all, all about me and stuff, and...and.....I'M SOOOO SORRY!!!!! I'M A TERRIBLE PERSON!!! I SHOULD DIE!!!! Just be merciful....think of all the crappy blogs I've given you so far.....those counted for something, right...?
OK, since I don't think I blogged about it, my whole family knows about moi and are fine with it. My grandparents are supportive. Mom and I were talking about how one aunt might react, so when she came over and did exactly what we were talking about when she found out...it was too funny. Mom told her what to say without me knowing, so she just walks over (in front of my grandma, mind you) and says "So I hear you're a fag.". It was hilarious! I was so NOT expecting it. Another of my aunts came and hugged me, it was so nice. ^.^
Also, almost all my friends know. There are only three (not counting parents) that don't...and they're all guys...I've never outright, by myself, told a guy I'm gay. >_> David told one of his friends, and my dad asked me. I don't know how to tell them...if I should do it over Skype, or in person, or never. >.<
Vampire Diaries...oh the wonder...the humor...the drama...the shmexiness...the show just ended it's second season, and I can't WAIT for the next! Such plot twists! The character deaths sadden me...but otherwise, fantastic.
Speaking of TVD, I'm now on Twitter. My name is GayVampire. Look for the picture with a Mangekyou Sharingan. :p Mostly to follow the celebrities I like admittedly...I joined when I found out the guy who plays Alaric Saltzman is there. Then Damon...oh awesome, sexy Damon...but anyway! >.> Chris Colfer, the guy who plays Kurt on Glee (which I am now a HUUUUGE fan of by the way, little surprise there) is also there, and he's awesome.
I've gotten bad about writing my book...but I am over 80,000 words I believe, so I've beaten HP1 officially. ^.^
I'll be done for now...possibly write more later.
Inner Dragon
OK, since I don't think I blogged about it, my whole family knows about moi and are fine with it. My grandparents are supportive. Mom and I were talking about how one aunt might react, so when she came over and did exactly what we were talking about when she found out...it was too funny. Mom told her what to say without me knowing, so she just walks over (in front of my grandma, mind you) and says "So I hear you're a fag.". It was hilarious! I was so NOT expecting it. Another of my aunts came and hugged me, it was so nice. ^.^
Also, almost all my friends know. There are only three (not counting parents) that don't...and they're all guys...I've never outright, by myself, told a guy I'm gay. >_> David told one of his friends, and my dad asked me. I don't know how to tell them...if I should do it over Skype, or in person, or never. >.<
Vampire Diaries...oh the wonder...the humor...the drama...the shmexiness...the show just ended it's second season, and I can't WAIT for the next! Such plot twists! The character deaths sadden me...but otherwise, fantastic.
Speaking of TVD, I'm now on Twitter. My name is GayVampire. Look for the picture with a Mangekyou Sharingan. :p Mostly to follow the celebrities I like admittedly...I joined when I found out the guy who plays Alaric Saltzman is there. Then Damon...oh awesome, sexy Damon...but anyway! >.> Chris Colfer, the guy who plays Kurt on Glee (which I am now a HUUUUGE fan of by the way, little surprise there) is also there, and he's awesome.
I've gotten bad about writing my book...but I am over 80,000 words I believe, so I've beaten HP1 officially. ^.^
I'll be done for now...possibly write more later.
Inner Dragon
Saturday, February 26, 2011
72,000 words!
Greetings readers!
And I do have readers! o.o I knew Alison and Pearl read this, (thanks guys ^.^) but I have other readers too! Thank you adrennalinpro for reading! I don't know what you mean you hope to be as good as me, I don't really do anything impressive with my blog. Er, that's one of the snags I have thus far with my book...I don't have a title at present. And I have no idea what I'm doing about publishing to be honest, but if you have any recommendations that would be epic. <.<
I hit 72,000 words! The first Harry potter book is about 77,000, so I'm only 5,000 words away from that! And I need to remember: This is a rough draft. I can go back later and change or edit things, so I need to stop worrying about how perfect it needs to be or how maybe no one will like it and both it and I will be a total failure and why am I still talking like this?!
OK, we did not go to that conference. Guess why! We got the day wrong! It was on Saturday, not Sunday...so we missed it. I'm surprisingly disappointed, I was starting to look forward to going. It saved a lot of oh so thrilling drama, but still. I was wondering what they would have to say about it...and that maybe it could help me get closer to God in spite of this. Not that I still can't get close to God, but it would be easier if I knew more about the relationship of the my faith and my...preferences, in detail.
We had another get together today, which was awesome. We played the Naruto PS3 game a lot, and the game is just amazing...and we played Dragonology! Which Alison won, after what must have been a couple hours. With much tickling of David in-between. We also made (or rather, David made with some minor assistance from us lowly peasants) Chicken Alfredo with a salad and bacon, then he made a cobbler with strawberries and peaches. Yeah, that sounds dreadful, I know.
Vampire Diaries...how many times can I praise that show? It's just fantastic!! Eye candy + plot = very happy Andrew. The main actress plays the heroine and one of the more villainy characters! And the show V, about aliens and stuff, is really good too, though not quite as epic. I want more Merlin...but thankfully, Naruto is no longer just history/flashback episodes!
And as, you know, a side note, (like it shouldn't have been the first thing I blogged about) my parents are finally divorced. It's not exactly something to be really cheerful about, but I'm glad it's done. Hopefully they can both move on with their lives now, and I'm sort of hoping dad will be able to let go of mom. Mom took us out to dinner afterwards, and it was actually completely awesome. We went to our grandparent's house after for dessert. I love mom's parents, they're wonderful. ^.^
I've started chatting on deviantART's chat-room thingies, and it's actually nice. They're some really funny, cool people on there. I'm mostly chatting in a gay/bi/etc chat-room. <_< The people there are helpful, and supportive. I've never actually talked to other gay guys, so it's quite interesting to be able to interact with them.
Altogether, things are going well lately. Please pray I keep doing well with my book, get more motivated to write for longer, and do well with my situation and stuff. Long blog. >.>
Thank you readers! You're (and I know you didn't see this coming) awesome!!
Andrew
And I do have readers! o.o I knew Alison and Pearl read this, (thanks guys ^.^) but I have other readers too! Thank you adrennalinpro for reading! I don't know what you mean you hope to be as good as me, I don't really do anything impressive with my blog. Er, that's one of the snags I have thus far with my book...I don't have a title at present. And I have no idea what I'm doing about publishing to be honest, but if you have any recommendations that would be epic. <.<
I hit 72,000 words! The first Harry potter book is about 77,000, so I'm only 5,000 words away from that! And I need to remember: This is a rough draft. I can go back later and change or edit things, so I need to stop worrying about how perfect it needs to be or how maybe no one will like it and both it and I will be a total failure and why am I still talking like this?!
OK, we did not go to that conference. Guess why! We got the day wrong! It was on Saturday, not Sunday...so we missed it. I'm surprisingly disappointed, I was starting to look forward to going. It saved a lot of oh so thrilling drama, but still. I was wondering what they would have to say about it...and that maybe it could help me get closer to God in spite of this. Not that I still can't get close to God, but it would be easier if I knew more about the relationship of the my faith and my...preferences, in detail.
We had another get together today, which was awesome. We played the Naruto PS3 game a lot, and the game is just amazing...and we played Dragonology! Which Alison won, after what must have been a couple hours. With much tickling of David in-between. We also made (or rather, David made with some minor assistance from us lowly peasants) Chicken Alfredo with a salad and bacon, then he made a cobbler with strawberries and peaches. Yeah, that sounds dreadful, I know.
Vampire Diaries...how many times can I praise that show? It's just fantastic!! Eye candy + plot = very happy Andrew. The main actress plays the heroine and one of the more villainy characters! And the show V, about aliens and stuff, is really good too, though not quite as epic. I want more Merlin...but thankfully, Naruto is no longer just history/flashback episodes!
And as, you know, a side note, (like it shouldn't have been the first thing I blogged about) my parents are finally divorced. It's not exactly something to be really cheerful about, but I'm glad it's done. Hopefully they can both move on with their lives now, and I'm sort of hoping dad will be able to let go of mom. Mom took us out to dinner afterwards, and it was actually completely awesome. We went to our grandparent's house after for dessert. I love mom's parents, they're wonderful. ^.^
I've started chatting on deviantART's chat-room thingies, and it's actually nice. They're some really funny, cool people on there. I'm mostly chatting in a gay/bi/etc chat-room. <_< The people there are helpful, and supportive. I've never actually talked to other gay guys, so it's quite interesting to be able to interact with them.
Altogether, things are going well lately. Please pray I keep doing well with my book, get more motivated to write for longer, and do well with my situation and stuff. Long blog. >.>
Thank you readers! You're (and I know you didn't see this coming) awesome!!
Andrew
Monday, February 7, 2011
...Happy Belated Groundhog Day?
I don't blog nearly enough, do I? >_>
OK, my book is coming along veeery nicely. I'm at 61,000 words, and the first Harry Potter book is about 76,000, so I'm getting there. I'm getting excited with my story too, and had better get moving into the more action-y parts. There is romance, in case you were wondering (hopeless romantic talking, my Edward is out there somewhere!...or maybe Jacob...or perhaps Damon Salvatore...sorry >.>).
We took our usual group, which I think I just have to start mentioning by name, of Alyssa (best friend), Pearl (best friend's sister and perverted friend), Alison (raised Christian like I was, and getting used to me and my weirdness. Alyssa's best friend), and David (my little brother, 3 years younger than me, and becoming an awesome cook) up to our aunt's cabin for an all weekend sleepover thing. Except this time, we took my ex-girlfriend Ellen. <.< She now knows about me, and seems alright with it. We've been broken up for a couple years now, and weren't on the best of terms, but hopefully things will get better now. Now most of my friends know about me, though I still have a few that I'm not sure I should tell...I don't want to risk losing them...
Anyway, we played Scrabble, watched movies, and had an all around good time. We stayed up till seven in the morning before going to bed...we're such bad homeschooled children. Of course mom was awesome, and she loves my friends, and they love her. May I use this opportunity to again stress the fact that I adore my mother and think she may be the greatest person currently living.
Dad is taking me to a Christian conference about homosexuality, to help people with family members deal with it, and to help people suffering from it to get over from it. I'm not very hopeful to be honest, and a bit nervous. I'm thinking it will at least give me some more information on the negative aspects of the lifestyle, but I'm not going for my dad. I'm going to God. If I'm going to live in sin, I can at least make an informed choice about it, and hopefully it will at least make me guilty. Odd thing to hope for, I know.
Anyway, I love my friends, I love my mom and brother and dad, I love the rest of my family, and I love God. I love my readers too, but I don't even know if anyone besides Pearl reads this. >_> Hopefully I'll be able to get through life, without messing up too badly. Hope and pray for me readers, life can be difficult, but it can also be good.
Inner Dragon
OK, my book is coming along veeery nicely. I'm at 61,000 words, and the first Harry Potter book is about 76,000, so I'm getting there. I'm getting excited with my story too, and had better get moving into the more action-y parts. There is romance, in case you were wondering (hopeless romantic talking, my Edward is out there somewhere!...or maybe Jacob...or perhaps Damon Salvatore...sorry >.>).
We took our usual group, which I think I just have to start mentioning by name, of Alyssa (best friend), Pearl (best friend's sister and perverted friend), Alison (raised Christian like I was, and getting used to me and my weirdness. Alyssa's best friend), and David (my little brother, 3 years younger than me, and becoming an awesome cook) up to our aunt's cabin for an all weekend sleepover thing. Except this time, we took my ex-girlfriend Ellen. <.< She now knows about me, and seems alright with it. We've been broken up for a couple years now, and weren't on the best of terms, but hopefully things will get better now. Now most of my friends know about me, though I still have a few that I'm not sure I should tell...I don't want to risk losing them...
Anyway, we played Scrabble, watched movies, and had an all around good time. We stayed up till seven in the morning before going to bed...we're such bad homeschooled children. Of course mom was awesome, and she loves my friends, and they love her. May I use this opportunity to again stress the fact that I adore my mother and think she may be the greatest person currently living.
Dad is taking me to a Christian conference about homosexuality, to help people with family members deal with it, and to help people suffering from it to get over from it. I'm not very hopeful to be honest, and a bit nervous. I'm thinking it will at least give me some more information on the negative aspects of the lifestyle, but I'm not going for my dad. I'm going to God. If I'm going to live in sin, I can at least make an informed choice about it, and hopefully it will at least make me guilty. Odd thing to hope for, I know.
Anyway, I love my friends, I love my mom and brother and dad, I love the rest of my family, and I love God. I love my readers too, but I don't even know if anyone besides Pearl reads this. >_> Hopefully I'll be able to get through life, without messing up too badly. Hope and pray for me readers, life can be difficult, but it can also be good.
Inner Dragon
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Happy Two-Weeks-After New Year!!!
I'm a bad boy, a very baaaaad boy. v.v
I haven't blogged in a while. >_> We got Cataclysm!! It's AWESOME!!! (no one saw that word coming) I made a Worgen, if that's how it's spelled, and made it a mage. I've never been a mage, but I'm liking it so far.
We just had a get together with friends, and it was a lot of fun. ^.^ We made breakfast for dinner, and of course I had too much to eat. Two of my friends, who I didn't think would like the PS3 even though they like Naruto, were playing it a ton. *chuckle*
I got the High School Musical 2 soundtrack....I love it. <-< I'm so very weird...but then I'm sure you knew that. "You are music in meeee"....love those songs. And of course Sharpey's Fabulous. "I want fabulous, that is my simple request, all things fabulous, bigger and better than this".
My book is going well, and I'm LIKING writing, and things are coming easier.
Oddly enough, I don't have a lot to say in this blog, and I don't feel much like...well blogging, so I'll end it here.
Inner Dragon
I haven't blogged in a while. >_> We got Cataclysm!! It's AWESOME!!! (no one saw that word coming) I made a Worgen, if that's how it's spelled, and made it a mage. I've never been a mage, but I'm liking it so far.
We just had a get together with friends, and it was a lot of fun. ^.^ We made breakfast for dinner, and of course I had too much to eat. Two of my friends, who I didn't think would like the PS3 even though they like Naruto, were playing it a ton. *chuckle*
I got the High School Musical 2 soundtrack....I love it. <-< I'm so very weird...but then I'm sure you knew that. "You are music in meeee"....love those songs. And of course Sharpey's Fabulous. "I want fabulous, that is my simple request, all things fabulous, bigger and better than this".
My book is going well, and I'm LIKING writing, and things are coming easier.
Oddly enough, I don't have a lot to say in this blog, and I don't feel much like...well blogging, so I'll end it here.
Inner Dragon
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